Momentary Lapse of Mental Capacity !

So something happened last night that freaked me out a little bit. To the point that I am probably going to see a doc about it .
I take Topamax for my migraines, to prevent them, its a strong neurological drug. It can have some strong side affects, one of which is short term memory loss or issues. Which I have , however I deal with it because off the meds I have migraines 5 or more times a week. So I deal.
Its a running joke with me that i cant remember shit !
Last night at my son's football game I got to the field, i was early , but when the team started to warm up I thought " are they in their practice jersies they dont look right " . So i asked one of the parents " what team is that " they said " A team " I said " WHAT A Team " She said " Freshman" Ok so im thinking, my son's team is suppose to me next . Why is Freshman warming up ?
So then i looked at my schedule in my purse ( by which i LIVE By if i lose it im lost ) it says "red team is here and Blue team is there " At that momemt I could NOT remember, or process what team my son was on , therefore had NO IDEA where i was suppose to be . I asked another parent, Where is Red playing, it was AWAY AWAY over an hour away from where i was.
NO WAY I could make it. So i finally get the idea to call my son ... "where are you " He says " Im in Elgin ( Where I was ) i said ' are you SURE " he laughs " YES MOM " I asked what time his game was , he said 7:30 ! OK There was the issue. They changed the damn time of the game !!
So anyway .. I am bothered by the fact I could not process information for a short period of time. I am SURE the other parents think im a NUT JOB ! . Last year I was at the Home Field and they were playing away ! My husband says its because i have too much going on ?

I need to look into this. Granted some of it is the meds, some if it might now be ?

Getting "stuck" For those who do it often Please read

I have been reading blogs lately and reading comments on blogs and have read ALOT of people talking about getting stuck 3 or more times a WEEK .
Let me put this bluntly , rudely , what ever you want to call it .
You can sit there and rationalize it all you want , "im not chewing well enough , im not doing what i should etc." But if your getting STUCK 3 or 4 times a week , sure you need to evaluate how your eating and all , but if your getting stuck that often you need to get an unfill !

STOP , i repeat STOP putting your bands at risk for the sake of a few pounds. OK your saying dumb ass isnt that the point of the band , to lose weight. YES , BUT what the hell good is the band if you DONT HAVE IT ? Take it from someone who feels like at EVERY Stuck episode now I might lose my band . Its NOT A good feeling. The first year and a half I followed the rules of my band to a T . HOWEVER, i did not realize that getting stuck and having that " one last bite " come back up IS BAD. ITS THROWING UP . ITS PUTTING YOUR BAND AT RISK . SO STOP IT !
Stop PBing a few times a week .

Bottom line, You should be able to eat SOLID foods comfortably with OUT getting stuck. Listen to your body. SLOW weight loss is better than NONE !

I cant stress this enough !

Back to the Basics

So I am turning over a new leaf. I am going back to the basics ! Back to what I know , back to what allowed me to lose 125 pounds . Back to practicing what I preach .
I know what I need to do , granted its a little different in a way , my band is totally unfilled , however i do have portion control w/ the little restriction i have. So if i can find some control over my hunger I might be ok with the band the way it is. The trick to the hunger might just be the basics. It might not , i might still need a small fill to help control it . But I wan to try eating more protein , veggies, cutting out the crap. Since i have moved in w/ my parents i have ate more crap in 4 months than i have in the last 2 years. I am ok if i need a very small fill. Before I had this last total unfill i was maintaining for months with only .50cc's in my band. That tells me I just need a very small fill to control my hunger.

So im back to the basics, back to blogging, making myself accountable to the world. Back to asking and giving support ! I dont have as much time for that as i use to but i'll give and get what i have !

So IM HERE !

Update: Back from the doc

Just got back from the doc. He came in and said " well i think you know what is next , there is no reason to even do a flouro , we talked about this last time, if you were having problems again after the unfill then what is the next step ? " I said " Surgery" He said " Yes, what happened though ? " So i told him what happened.
He said he wanted to check my band under flouro ( Xray)
He looked and said " YOUR BAND IS FINE " Huh ? WTF ? Seriously ? "Yep your band is fine, look goes right through , perfect placement" So after talking to him and thinking myself , i need to get back to bascis. Even though i am totally unfilled i STILL need to follow bandster rules, I need to get back to the basics. Since living w/ my parents its been hard to eat the way i normally do .
SO back to the basics for me it is . So the good news is no surgery !
Thank you all for your kind words and encourgement !

My Band : This is not good ya'll

So I am going to the doc tomorrow ( Or today ) and yesterday I am eating and I get STUCK . WTF? Im totally unfilled how can i get stuck ? So I throw up . Not good . Why is this happening ? What the hell is going on ?
The other day I SWEAR I felt my port FLIP ? I have no idea if that is what happened but that's what it FELT like. It might have been my port "stuck" between my fat in my stomach and just got " pinched" but it felt like it flipped.
Im going to call my doc today , see if he wants to see me today . But I have to tell ya'll, I dont think I will escape surgery for much longer if at all .
The mear thought of possibly losing my band is scaring me to death . I am already hearing from my husband " Just take the damn thing out , all you have to do is eat and exercise " my mom says " Just dont eat so much Crap Mindy " NICE thanks for the f***ing support guys . That got me so far before didnt it ? I have a feeling i'll call the doc and he'll say come in today .
My husband is working out of state now . He will be home starting Wednesday for about a week before he starts the next job . SO IF I do have to have surgery it would not be a bad time to do it. I just DONT WANT TO LOSE MY BAND !
I will keep ya'll updated !

FINALLY Lets try this again

I have an appt scheduled on Tuesday or next week for a fill ! I dont even know how much ive gained because i wont get on the scale anymore.
I need to get this taken care of no matter what , this wieght is not going anywhere on its own . So i need the fill. Im ok on my portion controls its just the HUNGER is uncontrollable. Its horrible !

Vitamin Give Away

Go check it out . I actually use these vitamins and they are really good. I like that they are not liquids , or something you have to choke down .
www.theworldaccordingtoeggface.com and www.bbvitamins.com

FINALLY some good news

My husband has a "regular " Job now . That's the good news. He starts Monday . The bad news. We live in Texas and the job is in Oklahoma ! So he'll be in OK 4 days a week and home 3.
Which is "ok" we have been doing the out of town thing for almost a year now . At least now , we have money coming in every week and I KNOW when he'll be home !
Its a good paying job w/ a good company . So i get to move out of my parents house in about a month , gotta get some money saved up and some bills paid off first.

NOW the other update. I still have not made it to the doc. And Im up to nearly 150 pounds ( 146 as of this am ) I had to go buy size 8 jeans because none of my clothes fit me.
Im TOTALLY Pissed . Im hungry all the time and the eating is out of control ! For me at least.
The bad thing is , i just need to get down to San Antonio , I have 2 free fills waiting for me .
Im hoping maybe Friday of this week or next week when hubby's in town to get my little one !
I dont think i can wait much longer !
Thanks for everyone's encouragement !

Love ya'll

Still NO doc appt

I still have not made a docs appt. Well , I made it but could not MAKE it there.
My youngest son had the flu this week. So the appt i had on Monday i had to cancel again ! HOPEFULLY I will try to make it this coming up week ! I am up to 140 pounds and FREAKING OUT !

OH BITE ME AGAIN !

So I'm explaining to my mom today about how NO MATTER WHAT I have to go to the doc on Monday . I have to get a fill. I need one so badly . I told her " I'm so sick of people telling me to "Just stop eating " when i feel like this , Its just not that easy" what does she say ? " WELL JUST STOP EATING " !! Ya'll I about came unassed ! Yes i said UN ASSED !! If you don't know what that means, its a Texas saying that basically says I'm about to open a can of WHOOP ASS ON YOU !Just STOP EATING. Yeah i wish it was that damn simple . JUST tell my stomach to NOT be hungry !